Dear Michelle and Jim Bob........

           How DARE you have another baby?  How dare you believe that children are a blessing?  Dont you know preclamsia is only acceptable to society when you plan on having 2 1/2 children?  Dont you know that even IF your midwife said it was completely healthy for you to have more children, that its just not acceptable. You are 46 years old, sure lots of OTHER older women have healthy babies, and sure some people have preemies, but they can have more children, you already have 19, that rules you out.  What are you thinking truely following what you believe to be true, even when times get hard?  Nobody does that! Just how can it be justified that all Christians are hypocrites, when you stick to your beliefs? it just CANT be believed you would do something like breastfeed, and homeschool just because they are one of the best things for your children. That you would raise a happy household, where everyone loves each other and likes being around each other, that is just not normal.  Why are you even bothering setting goals and making the correct decisions and investing your money wisely so that you can take care of their needs and wants. How dare you live debt FREE. Why would you even bother on raising your kids to focus on the content of their character and what makes them wonderful, instead of focusing on whether what they do is acceptable to the standards of society, I mean arent they gonna miss not having Nike's? Your priorites just dont seem normal.  How DARE you raise your children to be work oriented, responsible human beings. Wont that ruin their childhood? Wont they regret that when they are hard working, self motivated, goal oriented, successful adults? Now there will be more people with your morals in the world cause you are instilling them in your "too many"children.  How dare you travel all over the place as a family making memories? That isnt for your family, your family is an outcast. You dont act like the rest of America, you LIKE children. You look out for the best interest of your family, instead of self first. You have a healthy strong marriage. You love God and Man, and Children and Life. Why? Who does that anymore?  Oh and your TV show....Why do that? Yeah, we know that you said you felt God wanted you to accept the offer of the show so you can show the world the love of God. yeah big deal.  Because you did that, the viewing public and their opinion, can now decide how many children you have.  Its like the rule. I mean why would you want to live life in such a positive way? Others cant fathom how children, happiness, success, love and God can make one complete.  Just...How Dare you? 

Congratulations Duggars!

"I'm Sorry....."I'm Not."

 "Are these all yours?"-Blonde Lady.   "Yes. Ma'am!"-Me.     "I'm Sorry!"-Blonde Lady.  "I'm NOT.  I am VERY Thankful."- Me


              Are people really that rude? The answer is yes they are.  The problem is they don't see anything wrong with these types of comments. And Lord knows, with 5 little ones; I hear it ALL the time.  This time was different somehow. Not just because it was the first time someone made a negative comment around Dan.  But, because it was the first time Isaac heard it, and understood what she was saying to me.

            "Mama?" Those beautiful big brown eyes looked at me with a sadness I couldn't explain.   "Yes, Isaac?" I replied.   "Why was that woman sad that I was born? I am glad I am born."  Part of me wished she would walk around the corner so SHE could answer his plea. But... "Isaac, some people don't like children...But, Mama and Daddy we do. And you have LOTS of people that love all of you and are extremely happy you are born."

        I am Mama. That is the word, it completes me.  I am protective. I am sensitive. My whole heart is sad when they cry (especially after a spankin). I say it all the time to be cute, but the reality is I really do want to beat up little children at playgrounds for hurting my baby.  They grow so fast and the mere glimpse of a photo of them makes me tear up and literally feel it in my heart. I love them so much, and sometimes I wish I could have 10 but, reality is that aint happening. So if there was one thing that hurts me the most is Societies view on these beautiful human beings that teach us what we have forgotten as we got older.  Patience. Love. Simplicity. To Live. To Forgive.  To have mercy and everything that God sent them for.  They are in reality the very BEST of God's work.  They are here to help remind us of the relationship between God and Man.  God the Father shows shows all those things to us, and God knows we test his patience.  But, Children are here to show us that same relationship, We like the Father should deal with them how we want God to deal with us, in our short comings.  Children are a blessing. 

"But Jesus called them unto him, and said, Suffer little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God. Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child shall in no wise enter therein."  Luke 18:16

        So when this Blonde Lady flashed the Catholic "sign of the cross" on her chest as she said "I'm Sorry."  I reminded her that "I am NOT"  I am NOT sorry that I have 5 beautiful children. I am not sorry that they drive me nuts sometimes because they are teaching me something. Even if I want to hit my head on the wall, DAILY. I also remember it is something within me that needs to changing.  And what a blessing it is to be rewarded so abundantly by God.  I am SO happy that all 5 of my children were given the chance at existance.  Not cause I choose, But, Because God did.  Sorry? NEVER.

WHY I AM A MOMMA

(Here it is, THE TESTIMONY many have been waiting for)

In 1999, I was going through a whole lot in life, details of which I choose to keep to myself.  However, Midst it all and depression, I found myself  PREGNANT. And as you would expect the false accusations arised, none true, but none the less between the accusations and just down right cruel people with cruel intentions, I couldnt handle the fact, I was pregnant. I felt my only choice was the unthinkable. I called and set up my Abortion. Yep, simple as that. I called they asked no details other than names, and off I went to have done what went against my every being.  And to my unfortunate relization, I woke up during the procedure enough to fight and cry and say loud and through tears. "No, Dont, I changed my mind". Only to fall asleep again. And it was over.

(Taking a moment. Pausing. Being comforted that my baby is resting in peace with My God. Who saved me)


So, Fast foward to 2002 (warning:woman topic) I started having problems with my period. Instead of it lasting for 3or4 Days, it still would come every 30 days, but it would last maybe an hour.  So off I went to my midwife who happens to be practicing under the number one fertility Doc in the nation(Dr.Nuelander...Not sure if he still is but 9 years ago he was, He also appeared on the Ricki Lake documentary).  And Long story short and some sono's later, I went into see "Dr. N".  He told me this: "Your right ovary is afixed. It means because of the struggling I did during my abortion, there was scar tissue that formed. This scar tissue would make it so the tube was pinched off, not allowing anything to pass either way." I immediately questioned about my left ovary. He replied with this, "Well, your left ovary has some cysts on it. One is pretty large, its suffocating your left side of your ovary/tube obstructing the passage way on that side, hence the reason behind the absence of your period."  He finally said. "It is not possible for you to have children, without help. I recommend starting treatment immediately."  

This is when I promptly told him No. And that God was gonna heal me. He told me, if my miracle does happen, then come back immediately, cause even if I were to get pregnant, it would be tubal because I couldnt have kids.

A phone call was made and 2-3 days later, all the "brethren" I fellowship in our home church met together at a brothers house.  We circled together in prayer and performed what is called laying on of hands. Which Biblically is simply touching someone while you pray for them (Hebrew 6:2 It is to be used wisely...not just anyone should pray over you). This evening, I was encircled by my Brethren and my husband, A strong prayer was made. Heartfelt and Believing prayer was made (God said where 2 or 3 are gathered together there I am in the midst of them. Matt18:20)  And I was asked if I believed I said "yes". And we all said "Amen"(Which means so be it).  IMMEDIATELY...I had to run to the bathroom. My monthly cycle came on hard, alot and immediately after everyone said Amen. (I almost didnt make it to the bathroom) It lasted for 7 days...IT was unusually heavy flow of blood.  The following month I had my normal 3-4 day cycle and the the following month... I was Pregnant. <3


BACK TO THE FERTILITY DOC:    I stepped in his office after the sono. And his baffled look said it all.  He said simply this: "I see NO cysts. I see NO scar tissue. I see NO signs that scar tissue ever existed...I see NOTHING short of a miracle...God did as you said he would."    Isaac means "Laughter" it is what Sarah did when the Lord told her she would bare a son, after she had been barren for so many years....God said to me in a dream when I was 7 months pregnant, the SAME thing he said to Abraham.  "In Isaac shall thy seed be called."

I went into labor on my due date.   Isaac Daniel Blakeman was born April 3rd 2003. After an easy, fast labor at 11:55 pm, weighing 7lbs 14.5oz.  And he was nothing short of the most beautiful baby boy I ever seen.

TO BE CONTINUED................

If the Good Lord is Willing, and the Creek don't rise.....

....This is say to my children and my grandchildren...
As long as I am living, as long as there is breath in my body, If the Good Lord is willing, I WILL do everything in my power to continue to show you that I am forever here when you need me. I will be present in the good times, bad times. Births, graduations, Marriages, celebrations, and deaths. Through tears and smiles through hardships and triumphs. I want you to know that I LOVE YOU and will be your Mommy and Grandma everyday of your lives. I want to make sure you never feel slighted, you never feel lonely, you never feel deserted. I want you to know that  God, Daddy and I will always think of you as important and worth our priority. Always you'll be perfect the way God made you with your flaws and glories.  You can do anything you put your mind to, you are all smart, sweet, loving and precious in our minds and hearts.  There is nothing I want to miss in your lives, nothing: Forever.  Love You Always....Momma.

"I'll Love you Forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I am living, my baby you'll be."

Rubies in the PB?

I have had this blog ready for almost 2 weeks now and wanted to do a blog quickly to explain....Why Rubies in the Peanut Butter? Well simple.....  My name is Deanna Lynne Blakeman. I am a mom of 5!  4 little wonderful boys(and a Baby girl)  The boys are 100% boys. And I wouldnt have them any other way. Isaac is 8, Caleb is 5 (gonna be 6), Noah is 3, And Jude is 2 (Hannah is 9 months).  As you can imagine the Peanut Butter part came from the numerous PB fingerprints all over the house at times.   As far as the Rubies...They have many meanings...1: It is my photography business name....Far Above Rubies Photography.  2: It is a scripture in the Holy Bible refering to a Christian woman and the characteristics that should be strived for as a wife. 

"Who can find a virtuous woman? Her price is Far Above Rubies."  prov31:10."

The name collectively stands for rubies in my pb....Numerous times in my life as a mom..I find things just arent where they should be...bananas in plants.  Trucks in underwear.  And Rubies in the Peanut Butter.  

Love.